Sam Smith is bravely sharing specifics about his journey to identifying as non-binary.
The singer, who currently still prefers male pronouns, is taking new steps to better understand himself, which he powerfully details more about in the June issue of British GQ.
The 26-year-old opened up:
“Ever since I was a little boy, ever since I was a little human, I didnâ€™t feel comfortable being a man really. I never really did. Some days Iâ€™ve got my manly side and some days Iâ€™ve got my womanly side, but itâ€™s when Iâ€™m in the middle of that switch that I get really, really depressed and sad. Because I donâ€™t know who I am or where I am or what Iâ€™m doing, and I feel very misunderstood by myself.Â I realized thatâ€™s because I donâ€™t fit into either.”
The Dancing with a Stranger singer revealed that he wasn’t the only one who felt uncomfortable for many years:
“I was with my mumâ€¦ and she said something so beautiful. ‘Iâ€™m so relieved that you and me and your whole family have a way to explain this, because itâ€™s also been eating me up your whole life.’ Because my mum could see it and that it was a torture going on in my mind.”
Damn, so many aren’t as lucky to have that support!!
He continued, explaining that this is all still a work-in-progress:
“But Iâ€™m also very scared, because Iâ€™ve lived my life as a minority and now it makes me scared because Iâ€™m trying to explain it to people around me and they donâ€™t understand. It feels like a new conversation, but Iâ€™m now learning it isnâ€™t a new conversation and itâ€™s been around for so long.”
The London native first shared his non-binary/genderqueer identity in a March interview with actress and body positivity activist Jameela Jamil in the debut episode of her IGTV show I Weigh Interviews:
“When I saw the word non-binary/genderqueer and I read into it and I heard these people speaking. I was like, â€˜F**k, that is me.'”
His gender identity isn’t the only thing that the four-time Grammy Award winner has vulnerably shared recently. The crooner wrote on Instagram in February about his past struggles with body image:
“In the past if I have ever done a photo shoot with so much as a t-shirt on, I have starved myself for weeks in advance and then picked and prodded at every picture and then normally taken the picture down. Yesterday I decided to fight the fuck back. Reclaim my body and stop trying to change this chest and these hips and these curves that my mum and dad made and love so unconditionally. Some may take this as narcissistic and showing off but if you knew how much courage it took to do this and the body trauma I have experienced as a kid you wouldnâ€™t think those things. Thank you for helping me celebrate my body AS IT IS @ryanpfluger I have never felt safer than I did with you. Iâ€™ll always be at war with this bloody mirror but this shoot and this day was a step in the right fucking direction.”
We’re so here for you loving yourself unapologetically, Sam!!
[Image via WENN.]
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