Amanda Kloots is still processing the death of Nick Cordero earlier this month after his lengthy battle with complications due to COVID-19, and likely will continue to for some time.
Along with a sweet selfie (above) alongside her late husband and their son Elvis Cordero, the fitness instructor penned a heartfelt note to Instagram in his honor on Wednesday about processing “this loss more and more.”
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Kloots began:
“Every day, as I process this loss more and more, I realize new things that are hitting me on a daily basis. Today it was that I lost our family. I lost my husband. Elvis lost his father, but today I realized we lost our family. We didn’t really even get to be a family. We won’t have those memories that I dreamed of since Elvis was born. This hit me hard. It stung like a horrible bug bite actually. The pain of everything has recently begun to stop me in my tracks. I’ll be doing something and I freeze, unable to think or move. My gut aches, it actually aches deeper than I ever knew it could.”
So, so sad. We can’t imagine how hard this must be for her.
She concluded her thoughts (below):
“I am saying this tonight in hopes that if anyone else can relate, know that I’m here with you. If anyone else feels this pain, you are not alone. Grieving is a journey we all do differently. Talking about it when I have the strength is helping me. I don’t always have the strength, sometimes I can’t talk at all. There are no answers. There is no right or wrong. I can only allow myself the time and the process and be honest with that.”
Over the weekend, the AK! Fitness founder revealed their 1-year-old had said his first words, sharing a video of her sweet son looking at a photo of the late Broadway star. Along with the adorable clip, Amanda wrote:
“Elvis said his first words today!! Listen closely! He pointed at Nick in our new picture light and said ‘right there.’ He hasn’t seen Nick since March 30th. The fact that he still knows who his Dada is, point to him and give him a kiss to me is amazing.”
Especially as Amanda prepares to move into her new El Lay home with Elvis, which the couple had purchased together prior to Cordero being admitted to the ICU in March, we’re sure a lot of emotions will be brought to the surface. We continue to think of her during these heart-wrenching times.
[Image via Amanda Kloots/Instagram.]
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