Kaitlyn Bristowe has addressed her breakup with Jason Tartick on the latest episode of her podcast.

The 38-year-old former reality star opened up about why she was fearful of announcing their split to fans, revealing that she thought many would blame her for it.

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Kaitlyn shared that she had struggled with just how to break the news to fans after dealing with it privately herself.

“I’ve gotten to this point where something like going through a breakup — it’s a loss, it’s grief, you’re going through, like, the thought of losing somebody, all of these big emotions — and now these people are on the other end of this phone expecting you to share it with them while you’re going through it,” she explained. “Then they think, ‘You’re hiding something from us, why wouldn’t you be honest? I thought you were an open book, I thought you were this and just tell us already that you guys are broken up.’”

Kaitlyn adds that she held “so much responsibility because I see them as this community that I’ve built for myself.”

That burden then led to fear of revealing the split with her and Jason.

“Even though I have the logistics side of my brain that goes, ‘These people have their own things going on. They have their own traumas, they have their own dark places, they’re looking to me for an escape, like, this isn’t reality. You have to give yourself time first before you give strangers on the internet time, no matter how much you think they’re your community or family,’” Kaitlyn says. “But then my other side goes, ‘Oh, my gosh, they hate me. I’m gonna lose all the support, and people are judging me. And they think it’s just all me and it’s my fault.’”

“My brain is, like, ‘Here’s the logic of everything. And then here’s the emotion,’ and I am finding myself in the middle of that.”

Kaitlyn and Jason announced their split with a joint statement on Monday.